Following Stef onto tumblr.

Here.

I want to do all of the things I've ever wanted to do.
I want to continue to succeed and grow with my job.
I want to get out there on my own.
I want to do things my way.
And live the way I want to.
Without constantly over analyzing everything.
Without worrying about every little thing.
And just start not giving a shit about stupid things.

I don't even know.

So I'm sitting here in my room listening to Beach House and just thinking. My life is a complete mess. And I've missed it. And I'm not complaining. I'm thoroughly enjoying it. I deprived myself from being myself. I confined myself in one situation and just sat there and told myself that it's what I wanted. I miss the stupid things I used to do, the stupid situations I got in. I like being young, I like being carefree, and I like being free. The only person that I want to worry about hurting is myself. This is just a ramble of nonsense. Life has changed a lot from last summer, but in some aspects it's just the same. We've all grown, we've all made decisions that have impacted our lives. We may have lost ourselves for a time. But somewhere in there we are the same people.




And I just want to be me again.

OMG

Weird. It's been exactly one month since I've updated this thing.

I have nothing really, just random ramblings.

After next paycheck I'll FINALLY be all caught up in my bills and I'll be able to get my life on track.

It's my second week over at Montclair and it's been a great experience so far.

I seriously want to plan a trip to the Harry Potter theme park. Whose down?

TaTa.

There will be blood.
Coda: a Burn Scar in the Shape of the Sooner State.
Wet hair.
Kitties.
Great financial news.
Jeff Goldblum.
Brand New.
Snuggles seshes.
Zoos.

My life has turned into a constant circle of work, playtime with co-workers, and more work. With the occasional happy hour at On the Border and chill sessions at Lovesac.

Life's ruling.

I need to get to New York now.

I also need to get that black little pug I've always wanted.

Springtime! Springtime! Springtime!

I have no time for this thing anymore.

I'm sick. Ramen diet here I come!

I had a good weekend.
But I missed my friends :[.
Friday consisted of errands, turkey burgers, friends, and a shitshow at John's.
Woke up on Saturday, went home and spent the day in bed.
Went to Loop with some people from work and danced the night away.
Ended up at John's, made some pasta, drank some more and then finally passed out.
Woke up, hung around, got diner food, came home, Chipotle, and Red Mango.

Awesome life.

I'm surrounded by some of the most amazing people in the world. I am truly lucky.

"The Daddy Squid Rock Experience" -the wise words of Joshua Thompson.

Even though some shit is stupid, I've never been happier.

Here's only a few:

Fuck stupid bullshit.

I'm happy as a peach.

And now I'm cutting myself off from the world till Monday.

Just me and the people I care about.

I CAN NOT believe the shit that is happening in my life right now.

This weather has brought me WAY down. Sun come out soon.

I got a hand
So I got a fist
So I got a plan
It's the best that I can do
Now we'll say it's in God's hands
But God doesn't always have the best goddamn plans, does he?

I ain't quite the beauty
Pulls out two guns and shoots at the pretty, pretty view
Gotta keep thinking, things, hunters and kings
To block out the view, I gotta get
New bell to ring
New song to sing
A steady hand to ring
A readiness of things I do
I gotta get a new plan to bring to the people
People I can trick them into thinking anything
Oh and rust it just right in the light
It's gold, it's gold

Really?

Classic.

hand jive from Samantha Martinelli on Vimeo.